Whats next

How can this be true
How did I mess this up
What did I do
How can I fix it
How can I make it fine
What am I going to do
How am I going to tell them
Theyll hate me until the end
Theyll hate me until I die
If you dont believe me
Then let me tell you this
Im already the disgrace of the family
They hate who I am
They hate me for what I do
Theirs nothing in this world
I can compare this to
What will be next
What will I do