XXx I WANTED SO MUCH xXx

I wanted so much to see you
and hold you in my arms
watch you sleep so peacefully
yet be dazzled by your charms

I wanted so much to kiss you goodnight
and tuck you into bed
watch the food go everywhere
everytime that you are fed

I wanted so much to hear you laugh
when your playing in the dirt
and kiss all your sores better
everytime that you are hurt

I wanted so much to say three words
the first time that i saw you
but this will never happen
its something i cant undo

Because the day my baby died
it left a hole in my heart
and although two years on
i still feel all torn apart

But what really hurts the most is....
im the one who killed you
and when i think about it
i dont know how ill get through....

**I DEDICATE THIS POEM TO MY BABY THAT I LOST DUE TO ONE STUPID MISTAKE THAT I MADE AND I CAN NEVER TAKE BACK (IM SORRY)**