StArInG OuT ThE WiNdOw!!

Staring out the window
Living in the past
My life is rushing by me
Days passing fast

Sitting there staring
Wondering why?
I just sit there thinking
Then I start to cry

The memories bubbling over
The fears begin to rise
I feel as though its all a dream
But I cannot open my eyes

Watch me where I crumble
Watch me where I fall
Watch me as I stumble
Watch me through it all...

Through all of this confusion
Hate and lies
With every insult taken
A part of me dies

Screaming isnt helping
Cuttings not enough
Just go fcuking kill yourself
Come on, its not that tough

My mind is playing tricks again
And messing with my heart
If I dont stop these feelings
Ill soon be ripped apart

Im just so very tired
Of telling all these lies
And I cant let anyone see
The tears behind my eyes

But I dont know why I bother
To try and win this fight
When nothing I ever do
Is even considered right

Cause all this pain inside
Is too much to ignore
And Im so sorry to everyone
I just cant take this ANYMORE!!