I was thinking today
and i cant believe that next year at this time
my sister that i love so very much
will be married and
not living in the same house as me
i started crying
thinking what idf she forgets about me
forgets all the good times we once had
she will be living in a different state most likely
and i dont think i can deal with that
she has always been there
since the day my mom took me home from the hospital
and now i have to find a way to go on without her
she is the only person that knows everything about me
and i know everything about her
how can i make it through the week without her there
saying ashley everything is fine and
her saying i love you
yea there is a phone i could pick up and call her
but it wont be the same
all the stupid fights we have they all will be no more
its wierd everytime we are mad at one another
as soon as we need each other we forget all about it
and there for one another
what is going to happen when i need her and she aint there
or when she needs me and i aint there
i just hope i wont lose her forever
