Another tear slips down my cheek
and joins the countless others
that are pooling in my lap
and in the tissues all around me,
another storm has hit.
Trying hard to be understanding
forgiving and see things your way,
I feel like I'm being selfish
because I'm tired of having to share you
and I want to have you with me.
I know that this is hard on you too,
I keep reminding myself of that
and thats why I try to sort through it myself,
with each tear I'm more determined
but with each one it still hurts more.
With each time the date has to change
and the time without you gets longer
a little more of my heart seems shatters
and the days get even harder,
it gets just a little harder to breath.
Every time you tell me
your thankful I'm not there
because your protecting me
and its for my own safely
I really honestly do try to understand,
but it hurts so much every time you say that,
its the one thing you say quite a bit
that hurts me every time,
even though my head knows your not
it feels like your rejecting me.
I know you want me safe
but how much longer will you say its to unsafe?
Another month? Another 6?
I can't deal with the pain that much longer
of you saying I'm not with you so I'm safe.
I'm not asking for you to make things ok,
I know these things take time,
I'm not asking you to tell me when
you think it'll all be over,
I just hate you using it as a reason
because who knows how much longer it can last.
I told you that it didn't matter how long,
that your worth it no matter what,
I feel that way more than I did in the start,
the hope of being with you
is worth whatever price,
but my heart, its very fragile
and smiling can be a chore,
it hurts to see all the happy couples
and still not be able to see you.
One of my friends was complaining to me
that she hadn't seen her love in a week
and that she was suffering from withdraws,
what could I do laugh and say
"Your having problems with only a week?
at least you get to see him"
*sighs* Don't worry I'm fine
we'll get through this together
and my love for you grows each day,
just getting things out for a little relief,
I can't be this strong anymore
