You ask me why i cut
i say to make new pain
you look at me sympathetically
i look at my wrists, ashamed
you wrap your arms around me
i love your warmth, your scent
you slowly kiss me, barely touching my lips
as if i were to break
as i begin to enjoy this moment
i begin to remember the pain
i feel it creeping, spreading
like a disease
as our kiss becomes more passionate
the memories I've blocked for so long begin
to fill my head
i quickly pull away
you grab my waist
not wanting me to leave
your soothing voice fills my ears
making me want to stay
making me your slave
you hug me tightly
trying to stop my trembling
to make my fear go away
i wonder why you stay
why you choose me
so broken
so frail
you sit down
setting me on your lap
you look at me with longing eyes
you gently touch my face
a chill runs down my spine
you smile
making it impossible to feel any fear
you begin to kiss my neck
slowly, cautiously
you kiss my lips
you pull away
waiting for my reaction
i smile uncontrollably
you take my hand and rest it on your chest
you whisper in my ear
making me feel dizzy
as i breath in your sweet scent
you whisper it once more
"my heart only beats that fast when I'm with you"
i look at you
yearning for another kiss
tears tickle my cheeks
as they roll down my face
you kiss my tears away
desperately trying to console me
i kiss you aggressively
hoping your love will make the pain go away
i pull away slowly
i place your head on my chest and whisper
"my heart can beat once more"
