One step in front of the other

Life is not what it once was
Now the never ending trials and tribulation's of the day
causes me to cry
The doubt and dysfunction f the word
Take a the attention from me
I see destruction and misery in a world that i should
have never been born into
i wish i wasn't
I tried so many times to end it
My life is meaningless to me
Why do they care?
If i want to waste it then it's my choice
I deserve the same respect of deciding my lives course
i am the boss of me
And if i want t destroy it then it's my choice
If i were to change my ways
then i be just like everyone else
Alone
bored
and average
So i stay one step in front of the others
Doing drugs is my thing
Eventually
Suicide will be the next big thing
i guess when that happens
I be the first to take that plunge