Lie awake

Ill lie awake tonight;
thinking, trying to feel something.
pain maybe?
despair?
I'll be wishing i could drown in your love;
struggling to breath in a pool of passion.

and maybe the tears i will cry tonight
will burn through my flesh
and dry up my agony
so I'll never have to cry again

maybe I'll bleed tonight
just to feel alive
just to feel human

maybe I'll die tonight
the perfect suicide;
i could fall asleep
and never wake up
suspended in a timeless dream

maybe I'll feel the glorious sorrow
of the goodbyes that I'll make
the regrets that I'll have
the death that I'll face

but for now
i think ill lie awake.