Isn't this what you wanted?

What should i do?
I've been holding everything inside
Trying so hard not to cry

Isn't this who you wanted me to be?
some pretender
Another one of those fake plastic people with fake plastic smiles in your life

Its what you've turned me to

It seems that when I'm at my lowest
You just drag me even lower

So i don't speak of it
No, I don't say a word

I've been doing pretty good now
I even fake myself out at times

Nobody ever really notices the sadness behind my eyes anymore

I hate you for turning me to this

Forcing me to keep my composure everyday
When you can't even do the same

But i love you my world, my everything

I hate the fact sometimes

I wonder if you even really still love me sometimes
Or maybe you just feel obligated to be with me

I know I'll always love you
But our plans for forever seem so much more distant then they used to

You go off and do your thing
While i sit and wait patiently by the phone

We stay together
All the while i pretend every things completely OK

Because thats the way you want it

At least thats what you say...