Once again I'm pretending, pretending that I'm okay
Friends no longer concerned 'cause I'm smiling again
They haven't realized it's all an act, that pain is buried
That I haven't actually dealt with hurt but locked it away
Giggling throughout days, at night it's a different story
For I'm left all alone in misery, sorrow slowly choking me
Your side of the bed empty and cold, surprised it hasn't frozen
Still adamant you did nothing wrong, blazing with false glory
This hurt hasn't begun to fade, don't think it ever will
Funny how love can so easily turn to betrayal and hate
Tears slipping, strange I can love and hate simultaneously
After everything you said...sad that I know I love you still
Going out flirting with other guys, pretending I've moved on
No one knowing with each new number I'm dying more inside
B.itching about you to friends, focusing on all of your flaws
When in reality my heart just can't accept the fact you're gone
And you're saying the most spiteful things imaginable to me
Never knew I had the capacity to hate someone so much
Yet you're telling others that I'm still playing on your mind
Used to be my utopia now all that's left is endless misery
You say that you still love me but things will never be the same
Let's get this straight, hate each other yet love you and you love me
Never know what the other is thinking, both to stubborn to talk
This little escapade of cat and mouse become a dangerous game
When we met we were told, "You'll either love or hate each other"
To bad we were never warned it could happen at the same time
As I'm writing this can feel myself slowly going numb inside
Cause here's the truth...already know that I'll never love another
Everyone makes mistakes, always said people deserve second chance
Yet so confused thinking can I forgive him yes I can, no I can't
And you've already proven that you wont give us another go
Oh why did we decide to participate in this dangerous dance?
Do you know sometimes just want to slap you in the face
While at others all I'm longing for is the comfort of your arms
Come to think of it, yes I most likely could and would forgive you
So why can't you forgive me and take me in your embrace?
**Originally this wasn't going to rhyme, and then when checking it I realized some of the stanzas did, hence the abca rhyme scheme.**
