Your arms are not my heaven

I wouldn't call your arms heaven
because although they cradle me, so soft, so loving
i remember those arms holding me while i cried
i remember you saying goodbye

I wouldn't call your eyes beautiful
because with pain they dull
but I remember those eyes laughing
and i remember those eyes lacking

I wouldn't call you mine
because in all honesty, i hold no bind.
i remember what it's like without you
I remember the tears you drew.

I wouldn't call your name out loud
because i fear I'd draw a crowd
I remember the humiliation
i remember the frustration

I wouldn't leave you with the chance
because you never escape my glance
I remember the longing
I remember belonging

I wouldn't call us together
because we never said forever
I remember hoping
I remember coping

I wouldn't say we have a future
because the days are becoming fewer
I remember time is changing
i remember life rearranging