My fake existance

I glance outside,
i see the world
its hot, bright and the sun is shinning

I look again
look real hard
and see that at first glance nothing is what it seems

The real world isn't bright
its dark, cold and unreal
and i realise now im alone

Cold and tired
no place to go
nowhere where that i feel right

And i just want to go away
want my world to end this day
i reach for a knife

But i can't even do that right
so im sitting here again
with my happy mask on

Glancing at the world
not daring to look closer
and just trying to be happy in my fake existance