By 2 AM every one is gone, every one is gone to sleep ,and I'm alone,
i look around to adjust to my new atmosphere, and i feel alone ,
i think of you ,and i think of the others and i wonder why you had to go,
in the end its always me left, i am the last survivor but i don't want to live,
i want to die like you, i want to fall to sleep but i cannot,
these thoughts that run through my head will not let me fall in peace,they will not let me go,
i miss you all and you haunt my mind..why did you leave..why did you have to depart from me?..
i feel so empty inside ..i feel i have nothing,
like a thousand knives slide gently into my back and i do not feel them until the cold blood drips down to the ground,
and a hundred needles are stuck in my face...forcing me to cry..forcing me to feel extreme amounts of pain,
the feeling which i just described is dwarfed by the feeling of loneliness which i feel today,
i want to go and die..but i cannot, something holds me back when i hold the knife of loneliness above my heart,
you are my heart..and you wont let me die, you are my elixir of life and i hold you dearly in my heart,
love me forever...i will love you back , and my love will be 3 times stronger,
don't let me die...for if you let go of me i will surely realize, that i have nothing left to live for,
and i will die.
Tonight , once again as before and before , i am alone , i am alone and i write,
this is my escape from the reality that i do not want to face,
i contemplate my suicide and i remember i cannot kill myself,
but as i sit here and i write, i feel better inside, every word here brings a slant to my frown,
every letter is a part of my future smile,
And my memories of you bring joy into my life,
i wish to smile again...i wish to kiss your lips and feel that strange energy running through my body which makes me feel alive again,
i miss you so much , i cannot sleep at night, i miss you so much i wake up with tears covering my eyes,
don't leave me anymore...i miss you too much , stay with me and give a smile to a man who needs it,
hug me and love me..and i will feel loved ...leave me and dump me ,. and i will feel dumped,
and when you kiss me i feel warm inside..and it spawns off various other feelings nobody should describe,
to describe the feelings would ruin the moment that is elusive ,and indescribable,
your kisses should not have words attached to them...words do not coincide with your actions of love,
they only weaken the heart ..and ruin the love..
I miss you so much, god help me because i cant help myself,
if there is a god that lives in the sky ,looking down at me as i cry ,let him help me tonight,
i do not ask for anything ..all i want is love,
love gives me a smile,and i don't believe in something greater than love,
all i want is a hug..but i will settle for a touch....i want somebody to hold my arm when i walk away and pull me back,
pull me back ...kiss me..tell me i matter...tell me i am loved, God this is all that i ask for,
i want you closer to me, why cant i have you?
you are my sun..and i revolve around you eternally like the moon does the earth,
i am simple leaf....you are the rain..that showers me with life and gives me faith,
and without you i will shrivel up and fly away with the wind in the form of death,
don't leave me yet , don't break my heart and tear my soul apart ,because i know how it feels, and i would like for forget about her too,
but she will always be buried inside my head ..and deep inside my heart in the form of hate,
and she will haunt me forever until i make peace with her,
but i don't care about her anymore...now i have you , and my sun shines brightly through my window ...in the form of you,
i want you ..i need you..don't go away ,
i love my friends ..and i love my family..but you are the sun and the sun has no comparison,
i cannot stop thinking of you my sun, i will probably think of you until the second i close my eyes and fall asleep,
and tonight in my dreams i will kiss you and you will feel nothing ,
and i will think to myself in the morning..only if you were closer i would be able to kiss you..,but your far away,
if i had a way i would find you and i would take you..and we would live together, forever,
but as reality stabs me in the heart , i realize there is no way ,
so i must face the truth that this night is just like every other night,
By 2 AM every one is gone, every one is gone to sleep ,and I'm alone.
