Not gonna cry

I tell you that I'm not gonna cry
As tears run down my cheeks.
I tell you that I'll stand up tall
As I fall to the ground on my knees.
I tell you that I'll hold my head high
As I look to the cold dusty floor.
I tell you that I'm gonna stay strong
As I feel I can't take any more.
I tell you that I'm not gonna change
As every piece of who I am slips away.
I tell you that I'm gonna be fine
As my heart says "I'm not okay."
I tell you that I won't question our love
As my mind repeats the same question, why?
But don't worry honey you're getting me through.
Don't worry honey; I'm not gonna cry.