Cause im broken

And you leave me breathlessly hanging, literally. I try to hold on but it's too late. Helplessly I fall backwards and plunge down into darkness. The chilling wind envelopes me and I shiver involuntarily. Being the compassionate person that I knew you to be, you let me fall gently. It's as if a pair of pale light feathery wings is supporting me. I can feel a deadly thin thread tied to my wrist, and you are holding the end of the strand. My fate lies in your hands. Fear grips my heart as I see the thread slowly wearing out, and it is only a matter of time before it breaks. I'm too scared to let go; I don't know how I can go on without you. Thus I wait in silence and darkness, apprehensively praying that I'll survive this nightmare. Then all of a sudden I hear a snap and I fall faster and farther than I ever have before. Wishing, Hoping, and Praying that I'll feel you catch me and then hold me in your warm embrace and whisper how much you love me. But I feel nothing ... nothing but the cold bottomless pit you let me fall into. And as I sit there I think to myself... "why was I so stupid to let myself get wrapped up in his web of lies? Why did I make my heart so fragile and so easy for him to grasp and shatter into the million little pieces that lay perfectly broken on the dark deserted floor? Why didn't I see this coming? If I had would I have been able to prevent myself from being torn apart at the seams?" So many thoughts rush into my head and yet none of them you can answer. Is it fear? Are you afraid that for once you had found happiness and instead of grasping it and holding on to it, you let it go because you were scared to become that once broken soul you've always been doomed to be? Or is it because you never truely loved me? You had another all along that made you feel more than I could ever dream of making you feel? I for one would love to know the truth! Did you really love me?... Or were you lying to me just like all the others have before? Did I ever make you happy? And when you said you wanted to spend eternity with me.... did you really mean forever?