And I just wanna throw all those memories in a bag and throw the bag into the ocean. All those tears and mistakes. But you, you weren't a mistake, just a simple regret. And out of all the lies you told me, "Iloveyou" was my favorite. So I think about calling you and waste away my days retracing the shape of your face. No one knew me better than you, but if you knew me so well, why was it such a surprise when I finally said goodbye. Nothing matters anymore anyway, cause I've moved onto bigger and better things. But it doesn't mean it doesn't hurt, I just barricade myself into the future, and put a wall up to my past. Sometimes I just wanna throw up my hands and scream "I cant do this anymore!" I wanna throw my hands up and let it all go. But even they know me better than that. And it all felt so unreal, like a burning fire that couldn't be touched. Out of my grasp, out of my control, I surrendered. And all those times when I said I couldn't live without you, then one day I found myself saying goodbye. I just want the rain to come and wipe this all away. I kept all those pictures and everything you gave me, thinking one day I'd want it to look back on. But baby, all that stuff went up in flames cause you're something I never wanna remember. And I talked so tough, but it was obvious that you cut me deep; nothing can remedy this situation other than a permanent goodbye. But don't make me any promises, cause you break those like they're nothing. And you wouldn't have to lie to if you'd just let me go; Cause holding on hurts worse, trust me baby, I know. And I was holding on for so long,
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