Last day with dad

Me and him have been on thin ice
he ruined our relationship before
and never tried to make it right
he puts me down through thin and thick water
but its hard to say that he's my father

there was no discipline throughout my life
he just abused me cause thats what he liked
my heart sinks knowing we are flesh and blood
i never want to be like him, for he pushes me in the mud

doesn't support me in any way thats right
he set me of on my solo journey at flight
i walked alone for the past years of my time
he has had it out for me, ever SINCE i was nine

everyday was a path of hurt
he doesn't know what he did or how it hurts
he lost a son because of cancer
he doesn't cherish his last son, even though i try to make it better
he just fights me tell the time came
where i stepped foot into the same hatred game

he fought me trying to win
but i have my pride now, and he says its a sin
i wouldn't let him abuse me anymore
all of my feelings for him walked out the door

the last time i will talk to him will be today
november 4, 2008, and i wouldn't want it any other way
on this day he started the pace
he grabbed me tight and swung toward my face

i wouldn't let it happen so i fought him tell there was no more
the sad thing is this exact feeling, memory, hurt, fighting, has happened before.

i love u dad but our time has come to a stop
you will never feel what u did to me, and i would never let u, because your cold heart has popped

my whole life i have been trying to make things better with my pops, but alcohol has made it impossible. over the years i have gained strength from this, i have become my own person never wanting to ever be like him. i see things in a different perspective, and he is the one that made that possible. so the abuse i have tolerated throughout out my life, was worth it in the end. but there comes a time in life where things need to be said and actions no longer will prove it. so this is my last time trying to make things right with him. so a word of advice, when u feel that things are getting hard, stick it out, you can only gain character from it. on that, when u feel like the light at the end of the tunnel is getting further away, dont be scared someone will bring u a flash light.

thanks for reading this..