A symphony of laughter clutters my mind,
Dreams take me to wear I'm peace-prone,
When I look happiness is all I can find,
And all I think of are ways to die alone,
Love shrouds my heart with tranquility,
Pleasure steals my senses with a smile,
Everything I see is full of stability,
Yet all I think of are thoughts so vile,
Warm embraces cause me to feel whole,
Friends pick me up every time I fall,
There is true enlightenment in my soul,
And I'm still wishing I would lose it all,
Jealousy and hate consume my kind heart,
The pain inside me is growing too fast,
I will rip and tear my whole world apart,
For one chance to keep her from my past...
