To lose in life

I felt like I won the lottery
only to lose in life
I was beaten and abused
but I survived

I was broken and down
but won out

But now I'm down on my luck again
made to feel like the worthless piece of human waste
He said I was

Why Even Try
A motto once held
Now so true

I can't win
when I'm beaten and abused

I can't move forward
I can't go back
I just have to deal with life
but when you feel you can't
what happens then

I don't want to go that route
I can't
I just can't
I don't have it in me