I don't want to be in this alone
I don't want to wake up one day and see
all there is of us, all that's left of me
A single whisp of what I used to be
lost in a lifelong feelign of misery
I look at my mother,
the light gone from her eyes,
the softness of her face lessening as the years pass
A bitter woman whose lost her chance in life
There's nothing left now
but to continue on in useless defeat
She knows her fate
and just lets it play out
Theres no changing it now
she knows how her life must be
and she accepts it for there is nothing else
i don't want to be this
I dont want to wake up one day and see my children
have taken the life out of me
But wait, it was gone long before
Since we started, not long after
i started to loose something inside of me
a feeling of life, a feeling of joy
a feeling of knowing that there was so much ahead
and somewhere down the road
you sucked it out of me
And now im here,
nothing but a shriveled version of the person
I used to be.
