Will it ever just go abroad? (rap)

This ache, rottin here giving it's deadly dealt,
One mistake, sent my severe suffering as it's felt.
All my sins, wash up on me like a bad typhoon,
Learning as I roll, but a break up feels like a mad harpoon.
Thought life'd be easy, only to awaken in a puddle,
Of my messes, stressin over everything like a shuttle.
Woke up and saw, that things didnt turn as I had expected.
Looked over my shoulder, only to discover those who'd been infected.
Why cant I see, that everything i do is unacceptable?
I want to be the best I can, go to protectable.
So many jobs, I strain within this brain of mine,
The weight pulls me down, nearly crumbling my spine.
When will this end? I already feel my wrath of demolition,
What do I need to do? I already consecutively submit compositions!
Maybe I missed something, maybe I made an error.
Either way, I live here, stuck due to past terror.

So long Ive suffered, for my soul has filled with emotions,
Right now my mind is like a combustible engine, causing repeating explosions.
From all of this misery, through my heart it has thawed,
And all I wonder now is, Will it ever just go abroad?

Yeah I'm not perfect. I've got flaws like everyone else does,
Everyone falls eventually, and everyone needs help to return where they was.
Rappin and writin, that is this man's secret journal,
I cant keep my feelings in any longer, I've turned external.
My insides are churning, as I try to speak out before I see someone sellin,
Tellin them I'm straight edge, livin as a rebel in a rebellion.
All I've tried to do, was live my life without much complication,
But am always rejected, as Im rewarded a certification for annihilation.
If only I could find a way, to make them listen momentarily,
Or perhaps rise and forget, possibly through a crowd popularity.
Within us all, they say great power was gave a birth,
And Im not sure about that now, just there's a select few on earth.
I'm done here, I've got a mind with many thoughts carrying me,
So until later, this is the end of the show, for you to see.

So long Ive suffered, for my soul has filled with emotions,
Right now my mind is like a combustible engine, causing repeating explosions.
From all of this misery, through my heart it has thawed,
And all I wonder now is, Will it ever just go abroad?