Completely Incomplete

Eager to please
Quick to disappoint
Eager to please
Completely incomplete

The intensity is great
My entire world is your face
You get up to leave
And you pull at my faith

My faith in your love for me
So afraid you're walking away
Afraid you won't come back
Fiercely trying to make you stay

Emotions are dangerous
Fear anger love devotion
Fear portrayed as anger
As I cling to you and make you stay
Love and devotion portrayed as abuse
As I taunt you about mistakes

And inside with every word I force out is such turmoil
The darkness in my soul you could not forsake
The terror in my heart turns it to ice
And each time I push
I'm pulling you too
I can't figure it out
What is it I want to do?!

My heart says no
While my brain says yes
Walk away
Stay
Walk away
Stay
Walk away
STAY!
And my heart wins out at the end of the day
After I've worn you down to nothingness
And I've made you promise me you'll stay

This poem is too
Just a simple rant and rave of words
But maybe just maybe
My insides will be bared naked to your eyes
And you'll see

I yearn for your approval
I write for your praise
I live for your affection
And for your taste

And I'm simply asking
Please
That you try to understand
I'm just a child inside
So eager to please
And so completely
Incomplete