Even though

For years ive cried
For a boy broke my heart
Never healed from the pain
Recovery would never start

I was so weak
For he was strong
Convincing me lies
When really he was wrong

My love for him
Could never break
This I dont know why
But it was my biggest mistake

I cut for years
Striving for perfection
Throwing up the pounds
Trying to cope with my depression

While he was gone
Never to be heard from
Trying to survive on my own
Tears I could never overcome

Cried on my mothers shoulders
Night after night
Her not knowing what to say
But holding me in the fight

Friends thinking im foolish
"why does she still wait"
Never understanding my faith
And beliefs in soul mates

Future loves never had all of me
For he owned the whole deal
They all tried to "fix" me
But my heart they could never steal

Poem after poem
Confessing my love to him
Tear drops on my pillow
As the candle lights dimmed

Suicide would save me
For a world with out my love
Was horrible to live
So why not fly above?

I couldnt accomplish death
So I was living in hell
All because of this man
Who in love I fell

4 years later I am still weak
Praying to the lord each day
Please send him back home
So no longer I have to pray

I am tired of the struggle
To live all alone
I hate being by myself
Fighting on my own

Just save me dear love
For I am always here to be
Even though broke my heart
I am still in love with you lee...

*sabrina i know you dont agree with this in anyway im sorry*
lol