The window into my soul

Am i really that insecure?
hibernating from the world,
disguising my misery for happiness.
am i really that confident?
searching for a love that i cannot fufil,
using my insecurities to justify my faults.
have i really overcame my fears?
locking my emotions in a box only to push through the pain of loss,
never giving someone a chance,
only to find their faults. what have i actually achieved?
portraying a lie,
carrying myself as if im alive,
just like the stars shining bright
I Hide,
just like the moon gleaming at night
I Cry,
hiding a life born to live
I Die!