What am i doing,
Why does it always play out like this?
Why am i always the toy,
Something to pass the time,
I hear his voice,
I hear him say " i miss you"
My heart melts,
Tears fill my eyes,
Cause i still love him,
Still think bout him,
Still wish it hadnt of ended,
Never got a chance to realli start,
But nothing i do will make him see that,
Nothing i say he hears,
The only time he is honest is drunk,
Sober he hears wat he wants,
I never know wat he is thinking,
I dont want to belive anything he says,
I try to move on,
Forget him,
Find someone who might actually treat me well,
But he keeps coming back,
Keeps txting and emailing,
Calls in the middle of the night
Like im always gonna be around,
I keep getting pulled back,
Starting to give up,
Wat am i gonna do?
Just gonna let myself get pulled,
Maybe he will let go,
Like i did so many months ago.
