Fairytale

I tremble at the thought.
I never wanted to be a princess,
so why does this feel like a fairytale?
I may have dreamed of being carried up the stairwell,
But then again- I dreamed of a lot of things...

And I fear if I get lost in your eyes
I won't ever find my way back...
And I fear if once I ever held you...
I would never let you go...

You took me back into the world of dreamers
even after again and again, I was shot down
And now I break, at the thought of going back
to the opaque hole of bitter and numb existence...
that you gracefully revived my life from.

And your voice in the night awakes me from sleep
I try to stand but still you sweep me off my feet
Tis a moonlit desire to feel your lips upon my skin
But I steady my heartbeat, in case reality sets in...

I shiver and convince myself I am undeserving.
"I should have known, oh I should have known"
That once again I would give in, dangerous bliss
stronger than ever before, but its times like these,
Oh can't we just stay, this way,
Forever?

My heart is breaking skyward,
my mind tearing its pride apart
"Your so naive! They all Leave!
How dare you believe, in happy endings!"

I've succumbed to the hopelessness of the city
and your just a country boy in a small town
I've already fallen, the question is now,
Even if this didn't feel like a fairytale,
would you still catch me?
Don't give me a happy ending
because I don't want it to end...

Close my eyes, tight.
I can't let myself believe
words that whisper in the leaves...
For fear of loosing it all.
And yet- this is better than my dreams
Love in your eyes, it gleams
And for a moment, I risk to believe.

Oh, maybe my heart does plead...
sweep me off my feet...
But don't ever let me go...go...
For we are so close...so close...
and yet, so far.