I sometimes wish you could really
gaze into my eyes...
to see how close I am to breaking.
Sitting with my chest ajar,
leaning back, no need to blink
there's no need to look around
when you are no where to be found.
Let me stay, in the moment
when your whispers would caress me
at 4 in the morning when I can never sleep
without you beside me in my dreams...
But now, there is no more sun,
and no more night.
Blended,
like all the colors I can't stand together
Like Silence. Drowning. and a sting of Misery.
I am the artist of my own canvas...
and I'm running out of paints...and Time...
Ah, yes, least of all, Time.
Time, that's all I'm asking for...Time...
Did we ever have any at all? Time?
I've been crying for...Time...
Its hard to breathe without Time...
When all I'm waiting for is one more I love you...
I'm gasping now...will there be enough Time?
smiles turn to laughter
laughter turns to shouting
shouting turns to tears
tears turn to silence
silence turns to whispers...
and then...was that...a smile again?
a twist in my heart
a twitch in my pulse
a break in my breathing
a falter in my story...
somethings. broken.
And I'm deathly hoping its not me.
For if it is...
all my apologies are in vain
And I will only disappoint you again
How many times will your arms open for me
Before I run out of this....Time...
Oh how I wish I could defy Time!
Give me one more day...to fix myself...
Sometimes I wish I could have made myself brand new
when I had the chance to love you...
And others when you could accept this part of me...
So you see...all this Time...I just wish to use with you.
A heartbeat. A raw emotion. A wild awareness.
But would you love me if I was anything else?
Oh, the answer is yes in so many ways...as I feared...
But please, in my burning field, don't cast me away...
For your voice...I am shining, feeling so alive
I would give up my right to breathe for this feeling.
Oh- what glory! You ask for one last proclamation!
Don't you know by now- I'll give you a million more.
Just don't walk away...
