Death will help the pain to fade<3

I looked around
i took a breath
i closed my eyes
i pictured death

The razor was breaking skin
it cut so deeply through
i begged god to forgive me
for going back to you

but you are my life
without you, i am dead
even though you always repeat
every lie you've said

'i love you' are the words
that cut right through my heart
wondering if they are real
is tearing me apart

So untill the truth is told
i shall love my razorblade
and when im feeling sad
death will help the pain to fade<3