A year ago, i died <3

I gave up on this life
it was sometime last year
i became part of the dead
where silents screams are all i hear.

Shadows surround me
they show up everywhere
a year ago, i died
but they dont even care.

Nightmares haunt my every dream
they refuse to let me be
so when i die,once again
only god will see.

The voices that scream
they erupt inside my head
they torture my soul
and make me feel more dead.

So about a year ago
i put on a false mask
i hid behind a smile
so no one would ask.

I made friends with scissors
and then i switched to a blade
i loved the sharp objects
and the feelings that they made.

It became my addiction
to cause myself harm
death was leaving its marks
all over my arm.

The scars are reminders
that a year ago, i died
this fake smile fools the world
but im still bleeding inside. <3