Why did you have to leave

Why did you have to leave?
Why did you take your life?
Was it all that bad?
Was it worth ripping a piece of my heart out?
Was it worth it to leave without at least letting me say goodbye?
Were you in that much pain?
You died way to young!
You had so much ahead of you!
I loved you true as true.
You pulled me through so many tough times.
Why did you have to leave me behind?
Was it worth it to leave me here in pain?
Dreaming about you, Missing you.
Hoping this is just a nightmare or a mix up and you are still alive!
This pain I don't know what to do with it.
I tried bottling but it's tearing me apart inside.
My heart aches so much.
I don't know what to do.
I just walk with you in my mind and heart.
It's so hard to stay strong.
can i just lay my life down?
So many morn for you.
You took your life.
I try to keep all my feelings locked inside.
For how long?
I don't know till they day i break down.

~-Dedicated to my best friend who took her life in October 2008 R.I.P I will always miss you -~