Every Night

Every night i want to cry
Deep down inside, I want to die
I hate my life,
I hate me,
I dont want to live,
Can't you see.!?
Every night when i pray,
I wish i was different in every way.
Every night , I try to decide,
whether i want to live or die.
This is something I'm trying to hide.
Either i cut my arm,
or slash my throat.
Or shallow some now n laters whole,
to make myself choke.
If you're like me,
and you cry every night,
and there is something that you are trying to fight.
Something you're scared of
or something you fear.
I just want my dad to be near.
I'm sick of crying out all of these tears.