What's happened?

What's happened to that angelic sparkle?
That seems to have fizzled away.
What's happened to the desire?
It seems to have gone astray.

My decision has shattered the dream
The untarnished life you sought after.
I'm suffering the price of my decision,
By the feelings I will encounter.

A mound of guilt, the main ingredient,
A recipe is nothing without that is it?
Add a dash of hurt, you wanted them gone,
That's being unfair, they wouldn't want you to quit.

I wasn't willing to terminate their unborn life
That would've been too much to bear.
Please understand how much they mean to me,
So this relationship can be something we can repair.