Confused longing

Alone in the heat...
seeing her past...
she fights the tears...
a losing battle...

every fibre of her heart...screaming
please can it be a dream...its to painful...
seeing his face...flash...splash..

in the heat of the night
she now cries...
longing for him...

full of regret
wishing she'd done it different
wishing she hadn't been a disappointment...
wishing he hadn't told her...