Why why why?

Why do i cry?
why can't i forget?
why does it still hurt?

wish he hadn't said
why he did it
and what he did after
it broke me more..

he doesn't know
that upon him
i still dwell

why do i long for him still?
why is he in my mind?
why do i see him everywhere?

i remember
the past
and the love

but also
the fights
and the constant verbal attack

has he lied from the start?
was i ever any of those things?
why do i still do this?