Walls and sickness

Lost inside my mind
Somewhere no one can find
Does anyone see through my mask?
Does anyone even care to ask?

Everyone just sits
Everyone just stares
As they all watch
My life fade away

My heart slowly beats
And then rapidly quickens
No one can take the heat
Your feet rapidly quicken

Sitting alone in the hospital room
Scared and drugged
Feeling my heart zoom
Crying to be hugged

But this is my choice
I chose to build my wall
No one can hear my inner voice
I choose to block them all

If I survive this procedure
Will it make a difference?
Everyone will say sure
But the reality knows the difference

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