Kidney Shots

I can feel you creeping down my spine
Taking kidney shots at my side
So similar to resent
Feeding off the love kept inside

I listen late at night
For any entity related to you
I've grown to the point that
I know they are there when they aren't

Like whispers on the wind
Blowing in through my unsealed window
I can feel them on my neck
I look to see them become real

Each time they disappear
They were never in my room
Outside my window and in my head
But this presence I really do feel

Writing I feel watched
To the point where it doesn't matter
I watch my every step
Look how the watched becomes the watcher

Laying under covers I can't rest
My hand in any certain spot
Comfortable becomes uncomfortable
The mattress was too thin to start off

Uncomfortable with my mind
I watch what I think
Uncomfortable with my actions
I predict what you could think

Laying I wish them in
To finish off these paranoid thoughts
Laying I twitch in fear
That I really am right

Maybe it's my mattress
That causes my side this pain
Maybe it's just my head
And all these thoughts are truly insane

It doesn't matter if I'm watched
I'm watching myself
I have enough to fear from inside
I'm truly paranoid of myself

I can feel it creeping inside me
In my stomach, head, and chest
I'm being watched from outside and in
I leave myself no place to rest