Insane

Look at my bruises
look at my scars
I'll never be OK
not when my life's full of wars

I'm broken and ruined
though you never knew
i want to be perfect
to be happy like you

once upon a time
before my wrist bled
i was happy i was healthy
but people ignored what i said

now the tears fall
now the blood flows
now i cringe at touch
remembering each blow

deeper and deeper i dig
more and more i bleed
staring at my crimson wrists
hating my addiction to this deadly deed

my arms they scream in pain
my face is painted on a again
a smile is my lie
I'm worse than I've ever been

i want to be happy
i want to feel safe
but i know that won't happen
when under my sleeve my cuts ache

i miss the feel of love
of innocence not truth
i feel trapped from the world
as i hide inside my booth

he took away my life
he stole away my pride
my life crumbled to the ground
as he watched from the side

now i feel alone
completely and utterly scared
i also feel ashamed
knowing all my secrets were shared

I'll never be alright
I'll never be the same
not now not ever
you've driven me insane