Walking alone forevermore

I'm walking through the night alone...
wishing for a friend to appear once more...
praying to not be alone anymore..

I don't want to cry ever again... shed one more tear
tired of hiding that this is how i feel...
don't want to admit that i want to give up...
end the war of self.

Where has the night sky gone?
has it abandoned me too?
Now truly alone...
walking where i cannot see..
pitch black everywhere.
losing all forms of hope

drowning in this collection of thoughts..
suffocated by these emotions
being pulled under by these memories
weighed down by the burden i feel
wondering why it couldn't have been different.

Now the wind stills in the trees...
and my senses fade to nil
a feeling of numbness enslaves me
burdened with all this baggage
there is no way to float...

what happened to the legendary light?
the warmth that used to be...
never so much as a smile exists..

Damned to walk this world alone...
carrying my own pain...
suffering in the silence and the darkness...
never to exist again.