Only For Now

I have so much to tell you,
But I can't find the way to start.
I hope that time will ease this pain,
But now, it breaks my heart.

I don't know how to help you,
To make you understand.
I'm really very sorry.
And I'll tell you what I can.

I can tell you that I love you.
I will until the end of time.
You tell me that I have your heart.
And you know that you have mine.

You say we'll make it through this,
But I'm not so sure right now.
I try so hard to believe you,
But this week, I've had my doubt.

They won't let me be with you,
Because they just don't see.
That I truly love you.
You mean everything to me.

I can't form the words to tell you
That I'm not allowed to stay.
I'm sorry this will hurt you,
But I have to walk away.

I have so much to tell you,
Tonight as I fall apart.
I hope that time will ease your pain.
I'm sorry I broke your heart.

But even though I love you,
I have to walk away.
I'll love you till the end of time.
But I'm not allowed to stay.

Maybe in the future,
I'll be better than I am.
If you can forgive me,
We can start over again.

Start the live we dreamed of,
Far away from here.
We can get away from them.
I only need a year.

But for now, I'm leaving.
I'm sorry I can't stay.
My night is coming back now.
My rainbow fades to grey.

Please know that I love you.
I'll come back to you someday,
When this chapter's finally closed.
But now, I have to walk away.

2008--for my one and only