I fell so lost in this world. i think to my self do i belong here and i always answer no and then what i have always felt like i am alone in this world and i know i am and that is not what scares me what scares me is that i am so lost and that i will never find a way in life and i am always thinking about death and how i would be better off but i think of what my kids would do with out me but they are not in my life and that what is the worst thing because i am a great mom but yet i don't have my children and i fell so lost with out them and him, but i find my self so lost and thinking all the time do i want this is life no, but this is my life and i am crying all the time because i am so alone that i have no idea what to do. so what do i do, i have not answer because i am always thinking of everyone but me and i am tried of that and i am so sick of people taking what they want and leaving me with the pieces to pick up again and again so now what i am still lost in this world and i hate my self and i hate how my life is and i have yet no idea what to do
