Standing still

I lay here curled up in a ball
Feel like my world is going to fall
So unstable I can be
Why I feel like this, I don't see

Inside I'm such a mess
Sometimes I get scared, I confess
There's no magic hocus pocus
Sometimes it's hard for me to focus

Time can feel like it's going in slow motion
I occasionally have a lack of devotion
I don't want to screw up
I'm like a lost little pup

I feel like I'm standing still
Almost completely against my will
As the world rushes by
I want to grow wings and fly

There's always that fear
That I will hurt those who are near
Sometimes tears roll down my face
I try to find my place

Laying down on the floor
I feel I could stay there forever more
It can be so hard to stay strong
When sometimes I hurt all day long