Thoughts

by kate   Dec 6, 2008


My thoughts run through my head.
I can't understand whats going on anymore.
I just want to lock myself up and not come out.
I don't want to write, I don't want to cry.
but this is all I've got left inside.

people keep on telling me, do what makes you happy.
but when I keep on repeating these words.
I don't understand what would.
I'm laying on my floor, its cold and hard.

I want to take the razor on my shelf.
and end it all right now.
leave my computer on, the keys would be full of blood.
have someone read this over and over.
make them feel bad instead of me.

the story they keep on telling me.
every time they get mad I'm ready to do what he could've done.
take the gun to my head and not look back.
but I'm not suicidal.
I'm not even psycho.
I'm just emotionally stress.

I'm not understanding myself anymore.
I'll wait here, I'll lock my door.
I'll lay on my floor.
looking at the razor.
thinking maybe I should do it.
get it over it, slit myself and be gone with the world.

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  • 15 years ago

    by Chocolate Addict

    I can feel the anger, lost and confuse that busted from you.Pouring out the thoughts that lingers in your mind. Well I've also read some of your other works and im really surprise that you like to cut yourself (cause you seem like a cheerful girl in your pic) but i guess everyone has got a secret. I think it would be great if you were to seek a councellor it would hurt that much. Sharing your worries with someone will actually help you better. You could also PM me if you want. But back to the poem, I think you have done a great job

  • 15 years ago

    by loving my kids tessa and savannah

    I like this one nice work

  • 15 years ago

    by kelleyana

    There are so many exciting things to do to get over emotionally stress. Love can save anyone. Again remember we're living in a world filled with obstacles yet we can be happy. In stead of staying home with negitive thoughts in the mind, call a friend, do some sport, or even do some discussion on the net, this can have some healing effects on the mind. This merits 4.2/5, keep on writing, kel.

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