For many days sorrow is all I knew
I've sabotaged everything that brought happiness into my life
from relationships
to friends
even things that my family wished i wouldn't do
I lead myself to drugs
dropped out of school
these are the reasons why I hated my life
always questioned my existence
thought I was nothing
that every one hated me
so i should die
I didn't realize how much people cared
i was full of so much hate toward my father
toward the things and people who hurt me
it blinded me from the truth,
I have more to offer than my mind was telling me
my family has always believed in me
i was very fullish not to notice
yet I'm glad i did at the age of 18
instead of at the age of 45 or 60
my girlfriend believes in me
i have friends that believe in me
noticing this made me want to better myself
so I'm trying with every waking moment i have
every day I spend in this world
to give instead of hate...
So with every breath i take
every living thought
i know I'm not at all a failure
i could of been
but i realized everything so soon
so until the day i become some one who every body wants to know
i can only say"I've lived a childhood full off regret,please don't do the same"
this is the only advice i can give to every individual
please take it into heart!
