This is what Falling when standing Feels like

I feel like such chaos inside,
the world spins in my head.
I've lost motivation almost completely....
I have no reason to get out of bed.

The war in my guts grows
out of control every day.
I want to disapear often.
Just overdose and go away.

I've tried telling someone,
and afterwards he hasn't talked to me since then.
I reached out.
Only to have a slap on my hand.

Music was my comfort before
and so was my best friend. but....
no one is questioning the lost stare,
no one stops me and asks "Why?"

This is how I know I've fallen.