My Story

Note: I realize this may not be in the poetic form most readers enjoy, but I felt this was the only way I express myself. (True Story)

Letting go may be one of the hardest things to do in life.
I can tell you this because even after a year of heart ache,
Even after months of waiting for a love that would never come,
I have finally begun to let go of something I should have let a long time ago.

My story began two summers ago: I met someone who changed my life,
This change was one of indescribable splendor.
He was more than a best friend I could be myself in front of,
He was the person who made my world a better place to be.

I gave everything that I could to do the same,
But I knew I could not amount to the greatness I needed to be,
My weaknesses out powered my strength
And I soon cared more about him than I did myself.

Now one would think of this as a great sacrifice,
And they would be true if he was not the person he was.
You see, he had a brilliant mind that did not halt for anyone.
He knew I was not right for him, I never would be.

Yet he did not want to go through life not knowing what could have happened.
I am not quite sure what he saw in me that made him want to be with me,
But I did know that what ever it was, it would not stay,
And soon enough, he would leave for good one day.

I feared this day more than my greatest fear in the world,
Not because my heart would fall apart,
It was that he was by far, one of the most amazing people I had ever met,
Unfortunately, as things always do, change came along.

Life as we had known it began to create our separate paths,
And no matter how hard I fought fate,
The paths grew too distant for his energy to endure,
Soon I became a hassle for him to hold onto.

The kind, caring person I had once loved,
Now became distant, empty, and lonesome.
His once warm and tender touch turned stone cold on my skin,
He had a new life now, I was to be left behind.

Some people think I was insane for staying with him as long as I did,
But if they had felt the happiness I felt when I was with him,
If they saw how his sky blue eyes sparkled against the star light,
Just maybe then, they would have fallen in love too.

I saddens me to be writing this is in past tense,
This is my past, he is my past.
I would once again give my world to bring him to my present,
But I know in my past is where he would rather be.

That is why I am letting go.
He does not see me in the same light that I see him.
Even though he will always stay in my heart,
That does not mean I will always be in his.

Love will always come and go,
And once you find it, you will know.
I wanted more than anything to find it in his arms,
But his arms were not mine to lay in.

God gives the hardships to the people whom he knows are strong.
I am proud to have loved with all I could,
I am happy to know that I cared more than I should,
I am only sad to loose someone I thought I never would..