You smile so vaguely yet warm and sincere,
I believed and In trusted in you with every tear.
I confessed to you so many secrets, and a past I lived to hide.
In my heart everyday I doubted you,
yet you showed your intentions were true.
Being so far away from home with a new curve ball or distraction
to set me back or lead me astray,
the love & care you showed was all I had to get me through each day.
The walls around my heart I have begun to rebuild and I promise I'll be just fine,
because everything gets better with time.
I want you to know that you were everything I needed yet everything I feared.
Your affection went from warm and loving to distant and cold,
once trouble for me began to unfold.
I had known the day would come.
Its not tarring me down, No I wont fall apart,
I am slowly moving on for you have given me a better start.
With every cruel Intention & force of distance,
you have helped me to gain my Independence.
All because of you I now have the strength I do.
To turn my pain to passion instead of crashing,
because of things in life I must go through.
For months all I held in my heart for you was bitterness and anger
for ever trusting you.
Then I realized the signs were there all along and you were always right.
So I'm finally taking your advice and ending this endless emotional fight.
The fake smiles are unnecessary and the compassion insincere to,
so do me a favor and stop while your ahead before you make me hate you.
