I Am A Survivor

I gave up today
I just wanted it to all go away
But I still tried
Smiled and lied
you abused me for far to long
I'm tired and scared longing to belong
why did you hurt me
why not just leave me be

I cut today
I promised I'd put that razor blade away
But I didn't know what to do anymore
I don't like being your ragdoll, playtoy, and w hore
You raped me one to many times
You crossed one to many lines
Why did you have to break my soul
I'm yearning, longing to be whole

I cried today
I promised I'd hide my tears away
But I still let them flow
Couldn't keep it in, couldn't let them know
You leaned on me way to much
I'm only a child and I've head enough
Why do they all say I'm strong
I'm weak don't they know there wrong

I took a breath today
I let the pain fade away
But I still wanted to die
Just didn't want to say goodbye
You kill me mentally
You sucked the happy out of me
Why can't you leave me alone
I just want to live in a nice home

I changed my mind today
I let temptation go away
I just wanted to live
Hope I can let myself forgive
You scared my body
But it's made me stronger oddly
Why can't you love me like I do you
I just wish you'd stop what you do

I survived today
I let God take the demons away
I just needed a hand
Just wanted to understand
He gave me hope
Helped me cope
Why does He love me unconditionally
He's the only one who ever believed in me

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