Cutting...an end

I can see the tears running from your eyes
I can see the bloody knife sitting in your hand
Wishing you could end your life
The pain is more than you can stand

So you begin cutting your arm, cut by cut
Thinking of all the people that caused you pain
I wish there was something that I could do to take it away
I wish I could show you all the joy that you could gain

But you continue cutting your arms
The blood is starting to drip to the floor
Please know that you are hurting me
I don't know if I can take much more

I can feel your emptiness, I've been there
I used to be the person that was cutting too
I felt like no one cared about me and cutting was the way
And cutting was the only thing that I could do

So this is where it all began, this is how I felt
I would sit up all night with no one to care
I would cut myself until I couldn't take anymore
I had to cover my arms so I didn't have to share

One night I sat up cutting myself 33 times
I thought about all the failures during the day
I would watch the blood mix with my tears
Wishing that one day the pain would all go away

But it got worse and worse, to the point I couldn't stand
I started cutting myself deeper because I wanted to bleed
I started punching walls as hard as I could
There was nothing on earth that I would need

So I started thinking about ending my life
And I started thinking about the perfect suicide plan
I attempted a couple different times but failed
I really hated the person I became, a lousy man

Whenever I would sleep, I would see myself dying
So instead I would stay awake the whole night
I would just cut myself to try to defeat the pain
But nothing ever seemed to be right

No matter how many times I would cut myself
No matter how many times I would punch the wall
Nothing seemed to take this strong pain away
I knew there was only one way to defeat it, I had to fall

I had to be buried, I wanted to be six feet under
I had no other option, I wanted to be dead
No one was going to change my mind
There was nothing that no one could have said

So I finally had it all planned out
It was coming to an end, this was it
I didn't want to say goodbye because they would stop me
And I didn't want anyone knowing that I was going quit

I was going to quit the one thing that everyone cherished
Everyone loved life so much except for me
I hated every moment and wanted to be gone
And death was the only thing I could see

So this was it, the night before I was going to die
The next day I was going to wake up and run away
Hide in a place that no one would ever find me
And I would lay on the ground until I would decay

But something happened to me, something unreal
I woke up with a happiness that was so strong
I realized that I was supposed to continue living
And I almost did something that was totally wrong

So now I know that I was not supposed to die
There was a bigger plan that I needed to do
I had to go out and help people that felt this way
And show them that they could get through

So if you ever feel like you don't want to live
And you need someone that will listen to you
Or you want someone that can help
I hope you know what you can do

Please get ahold of me, give me a shot
I want people to see the light at the end
Remember to smile and keep your chin up
And I will try to help and make everything mend