Maintaining composure

I'm losing myself.
You leave; only turn
to watch me fall.

Laugh, walk away.
Leave me to cry.
Leave me to hate.

And I hate. I truely do.
I feel pain. I'm empty.
Walk away; turn; watch me.

Fall. I'm always falling.
I'm always crying.
I'm constantly denying
myself; you. Despising.

I despise you so well.
I want to break you.
Just as you've broken me.
I want to kill.

Kill.
Hate.
Love.
Cry.

So many emotions.
I'm losing myself.
Maintain, try, try, try..

Try...

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