Why is it so hard
Not knowing the answer to something?
Ive had so many times
When Ive had to wait for answers
Answer to huge questions
Answers to huge doubts
But it has never been this hard
I am so, so scared
Im scared it will be the worst answer ever
Im scared there will be nothing left to do
Im scared I will have to watch her die
Not that it would be much different to how it is already
Every moment she is sick
Scares me to death
I feel there is nothing I can do
What happens if its even worse this time?
**** this is so hard!
